Old & New

 

 I wrote this a while ago, about a year back! I have been going thru alot of health issue since and blogging hasnt really been on my mind (its been YEARS, about a decade, since i even did social media on a regular basis lol). 

I really do want to start posting at least once a week. I do have 3 kids and 1 does homeschool, but I enjoy writing :) 

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These last few years have been a roller coaster, to say the least! I started this blog in March of 2020, right around the time that we, here in the United States, found out about COVID-19. Never saw this coming though, did we??  I could name so many things I would have done different if I were more than just a regular joe when it all went down. Then I think about what I tell my kids all the time when we watch a show or movie and they say something like, "What is she doing just standing there? I would get outta there while I have the chance.." or "I could never eat out of a dumpster, I would rather starve.", (like they have a clue what it feels like to even go hungry, let alone to starve. smh), something along those lines though, ya know? In the real world you can scream at the tv about other peoples mistakes all you want, but until you are living through it, in their shoes, you really don't know EXACTLY what you would do. Sometimes I think I do, but who knows, until that moment comes.

 Anyway, I want to apoligize for not posting in.... well I don't even know how long to be honest!! I have no  excuse, it just hasn't been on my mind until recently. I started thinking about where I wanted my page to really go when I got my annual charge for my domain lol. 3 years I have had this site, and I have barely posted much of anything. I don't have any followers (I wouldnt follow me at this point either though, so I don't blame anyone but myself for that). 

As of Seprember 20, 2023 I have been clean from drugs for 10 years now. I have tried to help so many people through out the years and EVERY single time I ended up getting used or something stolen from me (once my daughters kindle was stolen!). Yet I still feel that its important to help, or at least to try to help, as many people as I possibly can. Not just people who are or were addicted to drugs, anyone who has an addiction, or knows/loves someone who does. Its hard no matter which side or the situation you are living through. I hope that eventually this page will be able to help people, or families of those people, with any kind of problem. 

No judgment, no hate, nothing negative at all. Only positive attitudes and a place where people can share their stories, when they are ready. Or at least feel less alone! 

I know I started writing my story a while back... I have to re read it and see how far I got. Believe me though, no matter how much I have written, there is a novel I could write and I am only 33! So before 23 years of age I have been through enough to write a book, and who knows, maybe one day I will.

I have always loved to journal, I love to write a couple times a week, or more if I have alot on my mind. I find it helps me in my sobriety. Some people go to meetings, some have a sponsor.. I write! The things I write aren't always important either, I have soooo many journals to my Aunt in heaven. Writing to someone I love and miss makes it easier, kinda like I am actually writing a letter, it just won't be getting sent anywhere.